This
is based on TMP so if you haven’t seen it, it has spoilers. It is what I think Qui-gon’s thoughts were as he watched
though the force his own funeral. NON
Slash. Also built upon the fact
that many sources (since I haven’t read all the Jedi apprentice books) that
Qui and Obi had a father-son love for each other.
Tonight
Tonight
I am looking at them instead of being there
Tonight
I watch my earthly body disappear into the flames
Tonight
I watch as the boy I raised tries so hard to be a man and not cry
Tonight
I watch my friends mourn me
Tonight I watch the one who is the chosen one being comforted
by
the one that needs it most
Tonight
I watch as the boy who became like a son to me, battle the demons inside
Tonight
I wish I were there to tell him sorry
Tonight I wish I could tell him what else I had to say in those final moments
when
he held me, dying in his embrace.
Tonight
I wish I could tell him that I love him, that it wasn’t just the boy I thought
of then, but also of him
Tonight I wish I were there so he wouldn’t have to be a man
when he had barely been a child
Tonight
lament for the innocence in him that was lost as I drifted away
Tonight
I want him to know that I will always help him bear the burden that I placed on
him when he wasn’t ready to be alone.
Tonight I want him to know that he is never alone.